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Being an ex

Bhargavi

Feb 01 |23:26
Last Updated on Wed, 11 Aug 2010 13:27
Stop pretending. I got your message. You don’t love me anymore. You are free to be with your girl, whoever she is. Bye.’...                                            ...                                              ...                                  ...
 
I am Aadhira. I bet you have all watched, read or heard about Devdas, Gone with the wind, or any other triangular or multi-angular love story where one couple emerge happy at the end. What happens to the rest of the people involved in the plot? Popular culture terms them as ex-es.

It is a sorry status. Some take to liquor, potentially harmful drugs; some to amaranthine addiction to some art-form, usually poetry or music; What is common is that, they are constantly traversing the edges of insanity. The wise among them, marry and lead happy lives, or so they say. And, the wise mostly belong to the women clan.

Ex lover gal

I am not all that wise, in spite of being a woman. Now, I don’t know if I am complimenting or rebuking my gender. I am still getting used to the tag of being an ex to my lover, Mr. Aarush. I still have the message stored in my inbox, ‘There might be hundred reasons to be with you, but, when in love, there are a million more to let go of you, my dear…’

I checked and re-checked if it is he who actually sent such a message. My mobile never cheats, it kept saying that the message was from ‘Sun.’ Funny enough, he has my number stored as ‘Moon.’ May be he has deleted my name from his contacts list already.

I am still not over the message. I have probably read it a thousand times over. Am I whining?  I don’t know why I am still not deleting it. Oh well, it has just been half an hour since he sent that message, and all right, I read the message only 15 times. Precision of facts notwithstanding, I feel like a corpse, if only corpse do feel. I am a brand fresh ex!

Here I am, sitting under his favorite Peepal tree, on a Friday evening, about an hour well in advance of our usual meeting time, crying my heart out, all for the one-liner he had to say a while back. Why-o-why!  

In another five minutes, it would be 6 o’clock. But this time, he won’t come. My long time dream of spending the full moon day in his company has come to a standstill. I know the reason, it has got to be Abra, his trusted friend. I should have known he was always bound to choose her over me. Did it have to be like this?

I feel like…No. I do not wish to feel anything now. Sun keeps telling me ‘haste makes waste.’ Deep breath is the need of the hour.  I am going to give a new explanation to this hideous term, ex. I am going to be what I was in my pre-love-with-Aarush days. I mean, I still ate, slept and had fun. Nevertheless, these days, I eat only when he says he has, sleep when he stops texting and fun in my dictionary has an unmistakable connection with him. Now I realize why people find breaks-up to be agonizing.

I think I saw the moon crying serenely. It is the Sun, again. Oh damn!

Aadhir, sorry da, was stuck in the traffic’ whispered a familiar voice from behind.

I am not going to cry, at least not in front of him. He gently turned me to his side, probably assuming that I was too lost in the scene.
Why are you here?’ I asked shoving his hands off my shoulder.

‘Come on, hardly 10 minutes late, you were late by 2 hours and 33 minutes last friday’ he said with a wink.

‘Stop pretending. I got your message. You don’t love me anymore. You are free to be with your girl, whoever she is. Bye.’  I replied.

‘Which? Sure, show me the message’ he said unmoved by my words.

What the hell, I thought, and opened the only message in my inbox.

‘Pretty stark.’ I squeezed a smile in. He snatched the mobile from my hands and pressed a key, allowing me to look at the display.

It read –

There might be hundred reasons to be with you, but, when in love, there are a million more to let go of you, my dear…

….

…

..

EGO.

Comments  

 
#13 Ashwin 2010-08-21 02:06 Kollywood needs something like Shawshank Redemption and you can give a story… law ellam apparama paathukalam.. Quote
 
 
#12 Gauthaman 2010-05-07 18:33 Good one!!
Cheers!! Quote
 
 
#11 revathi 2010-04-08 22:37 good one :) Quote
 
 
#10 Bhargavi 2010-02-25 10:43 Quoting Anonymous:
To let go of Ego, does it mean to let go of oneself?

Nope, to consider your lover as inseperable as your ego. Quote
 
 
#9 Bhargavi 2010-02-25 10:41 Quoting Harish:
WOW.
Thats perfect!

Thank you! :) Quote
 
 
#8 Anonymous 2010-02-24 11:39 To let go of Ego, does it mean to let go of oneself? Quote
 
 
#7 Harish 2010-02-24 11:34 WOW.
Thats perfect! Quote
 
 
#6 Bhargavi 2010-02-15 00:17 @Sindhuja,
Typical? Ah, Thanks :) Quote
 
 
#5 Sindhuja 2010-02-12 22:00 Ah! Anti-climax typically bhargavi :) Quote
 
 
#4 Bhargavi 2010-02-09 17:08 @ Anu,

Thanks a lot! Quote
 

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